a little procrastination goes a long way. my computer done, but they say they don’t send them for weeks after that. you know what that bullshit. yeah yeah yeah she loves me yeah yeah yeah. hey its cool out today. we got some rain. So let me confess my guilty Conscious day. people would have me most wrong on this one. So I have done stupid shit my whole life. on and on and on. but for the most part I just chock that up to the life we are given. yeah I could make more. but for me, the suffering of others is too great. but I do have some guilt mainly everything is in regards to those closest to me. raising my kids. I could have done better, well now… not then. taking care of my dad, when he got dementia, or even before then. I hangs on me like a wet suit. I know I try and justify, but really it is this thing that gets too exhausted dealing with others emotions, personalities, whatever makes them tick. but of all the crummy people in the world, we have to make a gallant effort to make the ones we share this life with, the best we can. I want to, yet I am weak.
