Well it was refreshing to say the least, here are a few pictures that took and a few on my memory card, leaving Nome. I do a lot of thinking when on these hikes, it is mind freeing as you get farther out the dogs love it. so this the first hike of the year for all of us. I try not to go when the rattlers are out. I can usually tell when I see some lizards. if there are lizards, you can bet they be snakes about. so it is quite a ways before we hit the first watering hole, a few puddles they were able to get some drinks, muddy water. but when we finally found a small lake they were splashing and dashing, then there were lots of watering holes some crystal clear, I was surprised at the lack of bugs. going to be lots of frogs this year. there was a nice growth, fire danger? perhaps but very pretty out. a few people out hiking on motorcycles and those razer dealy thingys. I was thinking about Nome, maybe I will go there to die. after all it is one of the places our indigenous heritage comes from, the highest anyway. so where we started and I am the end of my family line, my descendants are white, as some would argue that I am as well. but we know better, right? I saw Nome and I saw hope for the future of Natives lots of breeding pairs lol. some sad songs and some happy songs. that makes me always want to mention how ingrained in Alaska my genes are. how much it is my home. Even though any tom dick or harry from anywhere USA has a better claim. my dad side has at least 2 different lines of Alaska Native.. my great granny was from the Pribilof Islands, or st George originally, they moved them somewhere to hunt baby seals. then there was my great grandfather he was from Uganik bay, where our useless native corporation stands. my moms side has 2 also or perhaps 3 lets see grandfather Fred Monson and my grandmother was from Kenatize tripe, well her ancestors. we did not get that one on our blood quantum. I have found it, mom says it was originally from Canada. it is funny how these dna companies can get the irish down to the 1% but cant seem to distinguish aleut from yupik or athabascan. I like being athabascan, or like my white friends say half a trash can. sad they did not put it on there. maybe they wanted to make sure we got erased by our own breeding that puts my children with a whitey at less than 1/4. I personally believe it should stop there most of my relatives on my dads side are less than 1/4 I have one uncle who was less than an eight and he was running the corporation until he could not keep it in his pants. they are all greedy self serving people. thus was an easy decision to change my name. hey I was thinking this: China is our slave country. yeah look everything is Chinese I bought a video cam for cheap China. they working thier asses off to get us 75 inch big screens at Walmart for under 400 yeah. we are the overseers to the Chinese, if we quit buying they going to suffer. we overlords of the Chinese. Americans are the lazy people on earth. jobs consist of paper pushing sales and no work, Americans too lazy to do construction work unless they getting paid big money and little work to do. they would rather sit at street corners begging than work. but who can blame them. it is the American way. at least these Beggers are in control of their lives, unlike the American worker. I have to pay some dues today for a union that is all about “who you know or blow” half assed workers 8 people to do the job of 3
wow im all the place today… I woke up my calves were seized up, the dogs all crippled too :) yesterday I took daisy dukes, her first adventure. she skittish and small, had to wait for her 5 times and had a big problem passing some nimskills on the trail. actually it was my fault, I should have went around them, doh. the kept standing in the trail and she was afraid. I finally coaxed her around. she got some cholla on her, not bad but she did not like, jumping cactus, they stick to you and hurt at least a little. she did not cry. maybe i can write my way out of this depressed morning… I got to see my brother Kelly, him and gilbert been hanging around. I took them both for a steak breakfast at the brown bear cafe in gilbert. I had warned the people where gilbert stays that Mr. Elijah was a felon and could not be trusted. he like a dog who doesn’t get his way and then chews up the couch. somewhat correct. I wish i had enough money to take care of both of them, but they both still drink and smoke, so I like to keep my distance. So the honeymoon ended when Kelly did not give Gilby his id and bank card back. this is funny because gilbert had stolen my id years ago and went and go arrested under my name. the cops had told me at one point trying to pin something on me :) like the time gilbert punched Allen the nazi kid and I was brought into Mrs. Romek as office, she almost kicked me out of school then, but the fight with jimmy young in the middle of school was the last straw, off to bowman I went, no more pretty girls, but lots of party girls :) I got good grades, it was pathetic how many credits i got for doing basic math. anyhoo, so my family is in disarray, well not my family my extended family. my mom is ranting about sibling deceit and shit. you know I think we should be arrested for our childhood crimes, all of us used to steal our older brothers drugs, angel dust, marijuana, acid mostly and we stole it right out of the refrigerator, my brother gilbert likes to blame his life on this fact. not me, I was glad I had an older brother, I got to hang out with the cool kids. lance Riggen Steve mushaney, Steve Stevenson, Danny Rodriquez, brian temple. Ernie was the coolest, there were more Rafkin. and can not forget Janet maddex she still pretty, too bad i had to unfriend her, making me sweet Mary uncomptable to many post. sm likes to keep track of me online. I still stupid things not really dumbooish but you know. why all this whining, I don’t know maybe cuz I can. so this home and my sister are bugging me about doing something. so I ask my brother what you want me to do? he say go beat up the white Trumpers that robbed brother Elijah. I dont have access to his accounts, I asked him. you know he really acts deceptive and tells lots of stories. I have spent lots of time and money driving up there, I aways think we going to be ok, my guilt of my father, and him all alone, but all he want to do is talk about negative stuff and smoke cigs and drink beer. I keep trying to get him to get healthy with a video game system, when i show up there he is usually just slumped over and vegetating. he has listened to my diet advise, but not enough to make himself in charge of his own body, and i get it. I try to tell him be grateful he has servants and never has to worry about paying bills again. he has no grey hair. so if your blaming someone for yourself it means you know better now. SO GET OVER IT. the times are much softer than when my parents grew up, and they had it much softer than thier parents. GET OVER IT blaming anyone only makes you a fool. I dont blame me brudder or me mudder or me fadder. my brother had to raise us, and my fadder was going to cut his dick off. can you imagine. well I can tell you my father was abusive to all of us. there were nobody spared except my little sister, she was baby. I was ten when he got the boot. tally Wacker was 14 Sissa was 6, I always thought after he left we were hated, like something that could not be wished away so the fun life would return. how many people have kids and become resentful of them? duty bound but not loving and nurturing. it must be cycles going on in many households even today. this my friend lurks in the darkness when they insinuate you are evil or stirring up the pot. I will always be the maligner, it will never end. I accept my role as for what I was or never was. wowzer. so better check on old Gebert today. I have a break today, I am sure my mom is enjoying the warm Hawaiian waters, I told Gilberto to not be petering her with his drama. she deserves to enjoy her twighlight years without all the self inflicted drama
