is stress slowly killing me? where am i where the hell did i die. so I was reading about one of my Ollestead ancestors and how he was going on about how there was a big conspiricy, then he ened up dead. you know in the back of my mind, I always think this about our society, my brother’s wife swore upu and down he was scizoid frane tic wow that is a big diagnosis. manipulative, cunning. but outright crazy as a loon, our society like to villify anyone that does not think like the mainstream. go get a job you stupid mother fuckers, only to work for imbecilles making triple double. nobody can break you down as the ones you live with. what are you doing to him when behind his back, to everyone that would listen calling him a phychotic nightmare. I see this little bitch men in baseball, saying shit like he is bi-polar or something like that. or lew the jew, like to insiuate everyone was a butt pirate, ahhahah hey remember that saying funny one. O i have some bad new. Uncle Curt, has cancer. what a fucker, i mean life. he worked his ass off nights for years and years, only to get cancer. but he is living the life of riley now on an acre with a mansion. that sucks. so my little bug dillema pales in comparision. I still dont likke the little fucks. just when I think I nuked them another starts twitching away. or a bunch of them? my skin is clearing up, but I want 100% eradication. the war continues. I washed my face and hair with ORange, the hand cleaner, it did a good job, but the little fks are still hanging on. today I start some intervectine horse salve, you know the fucking doctors wont even give me something that kills them, they resistant to that tea tree oil shit. seems to annoy the little fucks. O you want TMI, last night I woke up from a dead sleap with the hardest biggest boner, made me feel real good, but could not fall back asleep. forgot the dream. so when your libido takes a nose dive from father time, it becomes less imprortant. like what the hell. lets face it, I had my time. so many girls, girls girls girls some girls just want to get fkd all night. hhahhaha rolling stones baby. O so I was talking about my black experiences on another shit note. I was working for Ivar Malutin on the Birtha Marie, Pineapple, gene delgado, Ducky, Neil von sheele and Ivar, anyway I grabbed Ivars buck knife and headed up town. I dont know why, it was a nice piece. anyway I was hanging out with a coupld local girls I think jule and one of the sisters, dont remember, hoping to get lucky, but anyway, I knew this navy boy was chomping at the bit, and did not want me there. I was shit faced to drunk to fight or fuck, not that I had a chance with the girls. so sure enough starts wanting to fight, I pulled that buck and he ran like the wind. I think he told the girls to stay away from me. ahhahahahha hey let me do one of my disclaimers. I have gottent into some gun play knife play, but never stuck anyone, or shot, or been shot. only at. the one time I used a weapon to attack someone was in Canyon Country California. we crashed this party in sky blue, they decided we had to go and chased us out with a big stick, I grabbed a flywheel and threw it at the guys head, missed lucky for me. he would have not survied that without grave injury or death. I took he stick away gave he a few pops and they let us back in the part. they were saying you dont look so tough, hahahha pretty boy back in the day before getting me eye popped like a grape. O O francis. so I had been with one black girl in all my years. I was blacked out LOL.. woke up next to a black beauty, had morning sex that was it. one time in texas we were trading some pots and pans for hooker sex, but I could not do it. which fo rme is rare, she was just so hard stiff hair leather skin OOOO me like them fine with softolicious. hey I wonder if my dream was sin. is it a sin to dream. need to ask the god police. well that is it. for now. maybe write more later. I have not been feeling well, not sure what it is, I think the bugs got me phyclogically fucked.
