The lord has no friends. as i fall deeper and deeper into depression my life seems meaningless yet so worthy of existence. like that of a demodex mite. hahahhahhahaha hahhahahhaha hahhahah
funny man. so our faces are the homes to to these little critters. to acknowledge their existence, it a crude acceptance of our humanity. hey wtf WordPress has spell check that works now? no not grammar, i walk my own path word press, it is trying to correct my neanderthal grammar, just spelling damn creep.
so I had a eco system of demodex living on my body, still they exist, thy can survive on your arms legs and scalp. my big problem now is accepting they are a part of our, my microbiome, although they are not so small, the width of a fine hair. icky icky icky, I posted a video, but I had been napalming them for weeks now. but I can still feel traces. when you become ultra sensitive to them, you know. but I have yet to see a live one on me. so here are a few things I have used in my demodex attack. I had it bad. my blurred vision, crawling sensations and my graveyard on my face, which was the biggest indictor, it is almost completely gone. I am currently of pills ivermectin. used up all my permethrin, I have bottles of tea tree oil, which is the gold standard in direct surface killing, but lemon grass oil kills faster and better, but it is more burning. I have horse ivermectin for topical. it is good too. might have to buy a life time subscription. I think the reason I let mine get so out of hand was my skin is like leather after a lifetime of weather construction fishing hiking whatever, hell I never washed my face except half assed in the shower. and it was on the side that they thrived near my ears. they do carry bacteria, and that is why lots of the acne meds are antibacterial. I really feel alone now they I have killed them off. except for the survivors, but I will be hunting them the rest of my days LOL. they had been eating my blackheads, no wonder I have not had blackhead in a long time, ha. they had a nursery town center and graveyard all on my head and face. they love to hang out in the nostrils and ears, but their fort Knox is in the eyebrows, mine are soft and supple now :) its is funny in recent years I have been trying to be more accepting of all creatures even bugs, but not on me thriving living destructing, much like we are doing to this living earth. why are we so much better than the demodex? why ask why. death becomes us all. we are here to die. living just for dying, dying just for you. despite my perceived lack of godliness, I believe in more than ever. let it be said let it be written.
halleluiah halleluiah, just finished watching Victoria, queen of the Victorian age.
