come on feel the power. you can belittle people behind their backs. and they will never know it. Clowns r us. the truth is that is not love, it is hate.
to truly love someone, you must be honest with them. it can be ugly. like me now that I am old and decrepit. the last waning ye
ars of my life spent in my own private hell, prison. amongst the people, what they say is true, the more you know, the more you suffer, oh to be ignorant again. ignoramus the famous ignoramus. I think I should make a song, shame on you, shame on me, shame on all of us. shame oh what a game, to feel the shame you must not blame. weeeeeeeeeeeeee yeah, I felt shame when I woke up as a child in my own piss. So here I am before God and all mankind shame free. yeah, fuck it. I have decided to secretly hate all people until they show me otherwise, or what is love all people until they show me counterair? hmm same difference. let me tell you a little secret, I now look at people faces for signs of demodex, everyone has them, even the tv people. WOW how blind are we, me half plus more. they have fucked up my vision. these bugs have fucked me up. all the men’s horses could not put humpy dumpty back together again, as my mind swirls towards inanity. what once was had never been. I am starting to believe my cancer was planted, these bugs planted, by whom, well the bugs did it. hey, my uncle gilbert is called bugs, lol. I am pretty sure he has a bunch too. it runs in families. So, I’m at an impasse, accept the status quo, climb into a hole and die or keep fighting on. I’m not the first person to be knocked down. and it’s not my first rodeo. I wish I could say at least I have my health, but mentally and physically, I suffer. o doesn’t pray for me. we all have to die. I have been asking dear god what the mother fucker do I do next. go ahead and jump, van Halen. loved dancing to that song, I remember in the Meca in Kodiak, I would be dancing and the jump part, well… I jumped :) maybe somebody will pay me to write this stuff hahahhaha I would do if for say a song. hey, I almost died yesterday, true story, I was driving home from PEEE OR IA cutting across the rez, making a turn on to the 202 and brain quit working. I was headed through a red light going a good clip, 45 50, anyway my anti brakes no worky, so I locked up, nice power slide like on the ice, only on pavement, did almost 360 spin with cars behind me. I think it was ready to tip over, no seat belted, i let off at just the right time and saved my dumb overthinking ass:) so yeah I have been not liking Arizona, I really have to get the fuck out of here. fuck this fuck that fuck you. let the good times roll. I got myself into another shitty job OLLIE. you know I dont mind doing this shit, but I dont bid for it. I bid the work, not jumping through paper pusher bullshit. fucking nigger paper pushers. stupid bitches never worked a hard day in thier lives. um not katlyn or the girls in 1281. justify your jobs you white niggers. hahaha sorry black people, but it is a nasty word, not meant for you, it is the ugliest word I can think of, worse than cunt. cocksucker, which is a reg fishing word from back in the day, is that a slur on gays? ok I digress. I should use my powers of word for good. but right now, I have to wash my face.
