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June 2021

another young soul gone..

2021-06-06T09:55:09-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well, looks like tragedy and life have met again in my world, My cousin John son Devin has passed away at a young age, such a sad thing to lose a child at a young age. I can not help but wondering how why and what we could have done to save him, although I have no idea how he passed, and none of that matters now, he has  came and gone, just as we all shall pass in time. We exist then we cease to exist, at least in the realm of the know on this earth.  Word: it seems maybe cold to even talk in such a manner, but it is the naked truth. death becomes us all.  We are all going to die on [...]

May 2021

day six, pick up sticks

2021-05-25T11:41:31-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok the fast, has turned into a nighttime intermittent fast, I have been unable or unwilling to make it through the night without eating something, last night it was and avacado, some sardines, macadamia nuts  and some guzzles of almond milk, I was so tempted to have a butter sandwich, but was able to avoid the bread and butter trap, woke up with a headache, but that is normal for me anymore, its more of a dull ache in my hippocampus, I think it has to do with my pituitary, but have no clue, and doctorless, clueless at this time, but I fee pretty healthy besides that, I know probably the next  thing, I will be diagnosed with brain cancer and a month to live, what then, [...]

Stoic this Mfkr

2021-05-25T11:15:43-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I know the stoic way is kinda to turn the other cheek, kinda, but you know what? well I am not leader, King,  or an Emperor like Marcus Aurelius, so being able to abide by the whole Stoic way of thinking is our of reach for most of us, I mean, you go into things, and just say, oh  well I must try to educate people, good luck with that, I cant even convince my dog to come. I really like the whole Stoic thing, but really unless, your already well off, or at least have all your ducks in order, good luck with that.  life is not fair, I know, I am a one eyed purple people eater, cancer survivor and currently suffering from thyroid issues, [...]

Killing with food, doctor twinkie and the gang

2021-05-25T10:09:23-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well, went up to visit my brother Gilbert at his new digs in Scottsdale. it had been over a year since I had seen him in person.  I was told that I would need a vaccination card, and they already had me sign some paper to move him, which stated, he could  leave anytime he wanted as long as he was back by 11pm or he would be charged a room hold fee, not sure what that was all about. I show up at the place, nobody answer the door, one of the residents waves me in, I ask for Gilbert, I find him as usual in a dark room slumped over, doing nothing. I had told him I would take him to the bank and then [...]

Day 5 still alive had a slip

2021-05-23T09:20:24-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well  last night had a  slip, ate an avocado, 4 slices of dave's bread/with butter and some grapes, but  I feel fine, no remorse, hiked up a mountain yesterday, well not a big mountain but a nice workout, still lifting, still stuck at between 175 and 180, actually feel pretty good at this weight, but still have a small kangaroo pouch, it is pesky for sure, that belly fat is poisonous to men, at least that is the consensus, lifting today, thinking about switching to a fat fast, oh yeah had a small handful of macadamia too, they are par tof the fat fast, I first learned of it from the Atkins diet, many moons ago, works great, not much hunger, need to get some sardines, I [...]

day 4 tough night time, more watermelon

2021-05-20T07:15:09-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

day 4  and still going strong, have not hit the ketosis yet, at least not full blown, not sure, but may have to jumpstart it with some intense cardio, perhaps some laps at the pool, I do sprints in the pool then hit the heavy bag, have you seen them big black rubber balls, they about 5 ft in diameter, fun to hit, but really gets my heart pumping. watermelon to the rescue, just a small piece, but was able to get back to sleep. thats it time for work

the little fisherman that could

2021-05-19T09:46:27-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

WIN_20210519_09_21_54_Pro my latest attempt at video funny to self :) I was always proud to be a fisherman, I never even thought of the many generation of fisherman that we came from, I love the Sea, it is my one place in all the world, I do love it best as a land lubber, but them boats, they are such fine nuggets in my mind. I recently saw a cousin looking for a skiff man, I was a skiff man, that is what I mostly did on seiners, but did them all, love the salmon fishing, you get to at least stay near land, love to see the landscapes, the rain, the other boats, the sealife, greatest feeling ever. Me and my son Richard few out to [...]

love love the birds

2021-05-19T08:54:08-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

the birdies, what a wonder, we get small ones, big ones, they are so full of life, so funny to watch, they bully each other, but are so fun to watch, the kitties think so too, we had a pigeon today, they really are a pretty bird, compared to say a dove, but not as cool as the quail birds, with their floppy thingy on top their head:) yesterday I saw a turkey vulture fly over, I was waiting for him to circle, but he just kept on flying south, they are a giant bird, sometimes you can see them eating road kill, they big as any eagle, but have small heads, such a sight. I would like to get a close up, but need to get [...]

day 3 of fast, midnight watermelon

2021-05-19T08:33:48-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

day 3 of my fast, woke up in the middle of the night and had a nice slice of watermelon, it was taste, shared it with rhaegar, I did reprimand myself for cheating so early in a fast, but I did load up on on supplements, and my coffee with melted 100% chocolate, and a splash of half n half. So far not hungry, or even tired,  one thing I did get this time was DR Bergs electrolytes, which have a good record and good reviews. still feeling a little blah about people in general, hopefully I can get some love for humanity back into my brain. Reading  has been a good mindset helper, and I know I have been on a good keel for most of [...]

the past speaks to us, we are deaf

2021-05-18T16:09:44-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

As I watch these birds wondering what kind of lives they have, I wonder why there are not fat birds, too fat to fly? do they know not to overeat? they seem pretty, are we happier, because, we know there lifespans are limited to a few years at best?    does that make us superior, I wonder, o I know there is more to life than laying eggs and then dying, or is there, we are the chosen ones, we think at least until we blow up the planet :/   hahahah had to quip a little. So I have been working on this being a good person, well at least not letting me be affected by others, or is it effected, or both :) This principle is [...]

slip sliding away, perspective is everything, and nothing

2021-05-13T10:19:36-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

living just for dying, dying just for you, that is a black sabbath song, kind of dark, but I never really listened to the lyrics, if is sounded good, I liked it, now.. well it is hard to like and sing Sabbath bloody sabbath, really, that sounds bad, bloody sabbath, dumb kids, will sing anything, well that was as hard as my rock n roll tastes every reached, that quite riot, maybe some alice cooper, but for  me good old southern rock, Lynnard skinard, hhahah , i know bad spelling. Creedence, and I love love Johnny Cash, the man in black. my all time favorite band is the Eagles, growing up it was Bad Company, still like them, but they have limited hits, only like one of [...]

I wonder about free will for our children’s children…..

2021-05-11T10:46:33-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

What should be the most important thing taught? I am not sure, I used to think that it was to believe in God, and still do for me, but I think even more important, is to know that we are all in a mixer of sorts, we do not have  a choice, we are born to parents and situations, we have not control over. watching these crime shows on tv, and the lack of any real life, some people are born in to is depressing, they wonder why we have so much crime, the lack of oversight on the worlds children, we have come a long way, but there is still work to do. Most times the best we can do is to break a cycle, of [...]

judgmental me, never be free free free

2021-05-11T10:30:41-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well, I  saw this video on Facebook , it says you must see this video, a sucker for  a good line, I pulled up the YouTube video, after watching it, I felt like just jumping off a cliff, so depressing, the whole point was long on this small brain, the video had some person in a very monotone, almost emotionless speaker selling the atheist view, he could not sell  snow cones in the dessert, he kept saying over and over, "when you dead your dead" nothing happens, his point was to live now, but that was a piss poor outlook, Know, I am sorry, as to be judgmental on faith based issues, has been one of my pet peeves, even for Jesus people, that say your going [...]

life goes on, long after the thrill is gone

2021-05-04T19:14:24-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well, I had a setback, been eating some butter sandwiches, they are delicious, I did use healthy bread, but ate  few too many, setback are part of the whole trying to get healthy body and mind journey for me.  I am sure there are some people that just hop right in on these things and are one and done, i have a lifetime of bad habits, and demons to battle, right up my alley, but it is a quest, and still in the back of my mind, I say is it all worth it? I see how people just say, ok, I'm out, of the rat race, the relations roller coaster and just say fuck it. I really try to have fun in life, that has been [...]

waste of time

2021-05-03T12:27:19-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

waste of time applying for a Native allotment, the land is useless, unless you have a boat or float plane, useless, like usual the government makes sure only useless land iis given to Natives no sense in wasting any more time, as the stotics say, you have to deal with life as it is, not as it should be, or you want it to be  

life is for the birds

2021-05-02T10:11:47-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I really enjoy watching birds, all birds even the plain ugly ones, I know my dad also liked the birds, he would always name the ducks, it is funny in a kida hypocritical way, in which we can admire these things and on next moment be eating them for dinner. We have this bird feeder and liked it so much, we went out and got a bird bath for them too, We are bird Central. I often wonder about eh lives of birds and other animals, are they happy, do they even consider if they are happy, is that our problem, thinking too much? those damn birds in my front yard, seem pretty damn happy, or watching the hawk high up in the sky, gliding along, like [...]

death becomes us all, dust to dust, all we are is dust in the wind

2021-05-01T08:08:27-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

dying and death has always been on my mind, many times, could have died, like the time, I looked up and was going 80 miles per hour and 20 ft in front of me was the flat bed of a semi, It would have killed me and perhaps decapitated me, had I not looked up, I was able to swerve to  the shoulder lane, just one example of my potential demise.  I have too many to list, like the many times, drinking, never to wakeup, I often wonder if I want to die without experiencing my death, like bleeding out, or dying slowly from cancer or more accurately the drugs, trying to extend life or cure the cancer, those last moment, last breath, just another one of [...]

April 2021

TO BE OR NOT TO STOIC

2021-04-30T09:39:46-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

MY stoic course is coming along, the latest greatest is quite a revelation, actually in line with my current thinking, but at a much higher level, it boils down to expecting people to be bad, yes expect bad drivers, mean, nasty people, to expect anything else, is well, ignorant, that has been my opinion, along the lines of everybody has a different upbringing, or circumstance, that is inline with christian thinking in the turn the other cheek, love thy neighbor mentality, but at a higher level, more precise.  The Sotic philosophy involves living according to nature, that means, being a good person to nature, and that further means, To be good to nature is to be good to our nature, which is, that we are a social [...]

Death of a Legend our Oscar :(

2021-04-29T14:21:34-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Life and death is an inevitable fact of this great thing we have been blessed with called life, somehow we must come to some kind of acceptance, that life is not fair, at least for some, and it is never easy, especially when it comes as a a surprise of or too soon,  We have had many pets, and my heart aches for all of them, I remember we had this pup, I named her Sally, we were living in Gilbert Arizona, she was a pretty lab pup, she died in my Arms, I felt powerless as she passed, much too soon, my eyes welled up, and short of wailing, I was heartbroken, we had anther Dog, Arnold, a german shepard, he too passed as a pup, [...]

looks like jobs are picking up, about time, well at least have a couple small gigs,

2021-04-27T04:23:38-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I think I have gotten lazy, not working, I know I need to get out and hustle, I did the bathroom, and that was torture, working in our Own house, and me not liking tile, or many of the things that i did, but it is done, well mostly. what a great shower, and actually turned out pretty nice for a rookie, yeah, still some cosmetic things and still have to run some conduit up the wall from the electric panel, perhaps next week, on a cool day, the attic get baking, looking forward to some trips, we going to North Dakota, Denver and maybe even the Seattle area, We were going to a CAl weekend, but might put that on a shelf, I really want to [...]

poison in, poison out

2021-04-27T04:15:27-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

So, I had set my post to private, but after a good sleep, decided it is better or left on, my reason, it makes me angry to be portrayed as some lecherous internet troll. Yes, I can not control what people think. I have not always chosen forgiveness over confrontation, yet it is the only path for my sanity and well being. The Evil will eventually die, Evil is as evil does. The trick, to defend myself without naming names, yes I know the sources of this slander, those who perpetuate, often under the cloak of an angels wings, it would do me no good will, to join in the same game. I am still a father, and it is far better to be that of a [...]

love or in love? what is the difference

2021-04-27T03:50:00-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Huge difference, from my perspective, of love something or just being loving, or madly in love, I am still in love with my wife, I love my children, that seems simple, right? here is where it get tricky, when your visiting say, Instagram, they dont have a like, sign just a heart, no I just think of it as a like sign, but there in lies the problem, maybe the recipient thinks, I am madly in love with them? kind of creepy right, who falls in love sight unseen, they may not even be real, true story, when I first got into computers about 1995, the internet was infantile, compared to that of today's point and click technology, there were no pictures, you could get a stock [...]

sweet Mary, Sophie, Rhaegar and me at Canyon lake

2021-04-26T07:42:05-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

we got a plastic kayak at Dicks Sporting goods store, heavy but very safe, Mary first time kayaking, she had fun, our biggest problem was the dogs,  at first, both of them went on my board, all was fine and dandy, until sweet mary got the hang of her kayak, she got too far away, and created some great anxiety for our dog Sophie, who, despite not liking the water, jumped in and swam toward sweet Mary, well, Rhaegar may seem like a big and tough German Shepard, but he loves Sophia, and so he jumps in too, that pretty much summed up the rest of the day, dogs crying and jumping toward Mary, and Rhaegar crying for Sophie, a viscous cycle, we decide next, time not [...]

happy Sunday

2021-04-25T08:18:21-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well, got nothing to say, let see if I can force something out if I just start typing, like hiking just go and the rest will take care of itself. I am still ini the realization of how much I do not control my own thought, or emotions, I have come so yet, have so far to go. One thing that they Stoics portray as their root of theory is to be one with nature. I see that as all the creatures of this planet, the birds, bees, dogs, cats, wolves, eagles, and even the unwanted.  We were given reason, the ability to reason, now all these other creatures, were to in a limited way, compared to us human beans. lol If we Act impulsively we are [...]

growth pains and dog fun

2021-04-24T10:43:19-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

yes, growth either muscle, mental, or relationships takes work and can be  painful, but the lack of is stagnation, or worse atrophy The Key is moderation and thinking before acting, and perhaps a good journal to vent on :) Yesterday, I took the dogs to canyon lake, its about 1/2 hour drive from out house, I had no idea, how things would go, for one thing, I had not tried the paddle board, except in the pool, but it was good and buoyant.  I forgot to take their leashes, so I used some line (rope) to keep them "leashed" unfortunatly, Rhaegar almost choked sophie to death, back in the truck they went, I got the paddle board positioned in the water and retrieved my 2 canine freinds, [...]

lifelong learning how to live

2021-04-23T11:11:32-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

That was a quote from one of the Stoics, that was very important, but it should of read, learning how to live a happy life, you know what they say happy wife happy life, behind every successful man is a woman, pulling the strings, what about if they not successful? what then, still the wife's fault?  Maybe if he is a child without free will. We all have a choice to make in life, and the most important, to happiness or success, however we measure such things, the people you have close to you in your life, can be the catalyst to a good or bad life, yet the fault does not lie with them, We all have free will, free choice, yet you hear about the [...]

growing old, but not mold

2021-04-22T17:06:30-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, so I have embraced this stoic thingy, called phil os o fee, but as I said, I am not  giving up on God, I mean, who do I cry to, when times are bleak? who will I think is walking me through my life journey when times are tough, and they will always fluctuate, as long as I can breath, no I refuse to give my my Belif in God, and God had given me the Christian religion, well the Russian orthodox, then the Episcopal, and now the new "All in Agreement" Christianity, whereby, it takes all things in agreement and throws out anything not, so pretty much the Ten Commandments.  I still find it ignorant for One christian faith to attack another over beliefs, always [...]

dont know where the hell that last one went, let me try one more

2021-04-22T13:32:41-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, so this stoicism has been on my mind, my latest class, was centered around, not just knowing this philosophy, but practicing it, faith without works is, blah blah blah, sorry forgot the words anyhoo reacting as apposed to digesting, that is the theme, it is so true, I have been doing this my whole life, reacting, reacting, my growth has been centered around this, but my whole upgrade since AA has been flawed, let me explain: AA teaches you that we are flawed and we do make mistakes and have these resentments, so we are to admit when we are wrong, which are often the results of reaction. someone gives you a dirty look, you grimace or return the favor, right. let me see,  I need [...]

wear was eye?

2021-04-22T09:33:13-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I got confused by all the stoicism going on around me, not This whole stoicism, rings true and in line with how my thinking has evolved over the years, well except the atheist part, that my friend is a little hard to swallow, especially if it is true, we are just figment of some being  existence, happenstance of sorts, might as well be an illusion, but it is more important is what a person chooses to believe, right?  That  is the whole crux of our existence, perhaps the thing that makes us human. I am pretty sure my dog, cat or a wild coyote, has no opinion on the afterlife,  a diety, or religion or anything other than the here and now, or perhaps a scooby snack. [...]

welcome to my new host: dream host

2021-04-20T08:09:22-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

That leads me into my first story, dreaming, what are we dreaming of? I see dead people, well they alive in dream, but their time has passed, this week, Don Vinberg, I fished for him on the Dee Donna J, best fishing ever, best Capt. and crew, my dad was on the corks, Norman Kasheveroff and Mike Cash were in on Deck, I was the skiff monkey, with a prodigal son Randy, something or another, his dad was some big shot skipper, as I recall, The s0ns of the skippers, were often the elite fisherman, never longing to get on a highlander, but born into a solid fishing career, perhaps as some of my family, my brother Tollak, was born into the Carlough regime.  These fisherman had [...]

is it generational or or older people irrelevant?

2021-04-17T06:45:32-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Crazy old man, that is what I will be if I live to be a hundred, that is for sure, but at 58, and  spry and healthy, can it be the perception of me now? How far out can I be, for me, it is a question of, to be or not to be I am a baby boomer, We have generations of family alive right now, from the baby boomers  to the current generation of Gen Alpha, wow so many Generations, I thought my father was from the baby boomers, but before us there was the Silent Generation, maybe because they made the Natives, silent, not sure, it also incudes me mum, and well she not silent, but she does not know of lick of Native [...]

Its A Miracle Pill, or is it?

2021-04-15T11:18:39-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I grew up pretty much ingesting any drug or drink, that I could get my hands on, including PCP, crank, cocaine, and LSD, thankfully for me, I was too poor to be able to buy them on any regular basis, and except for beer, never got hooked, but  when I quit drinking, I learned that pills can help ease the  stresses and rigors of life, I actually used a pill when I successfully was able to quit the sauce, once and for all, this was prescribed by a doctor. It worked very good, although, I never actually drank, once I started taking it, it was not anti-abuse, as that may not have worked, and would  been more of a challenge, but this was my successful, to this [...]

fond memories of Kodiak, the Emerald Island

2021-04-14T09:25:44-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Kodiak, had become a kind of refuge over the years, the best of times, the worst of times, actually mostly the best of times, what adventures I have had on that magical island. from our first experiences of set netting in Uganik, with my parents to fishing solo with my pops, and another trip with my brother tollak on a submarine type craft, they called it a jitney, it was pretty much just a power skiff, with a shell, but this story Is more of the characters along the way. Ted Pestrikoff, lived in a small cabin our in Uganik, his home now owned by others, he rowed us home, when pops went to the cannery, that is a nice journey for an older gent, but he [...]

what eye am up to? 5’10 1/4″ still….

2021-04-14T07:53:54-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well I got the jOhnson and johnson vaccine on 3.31.21 about 2 weeks ago, time flies when your having fun, looks like they recalled it, or paused it, I did notice, my smell had become blunted, yet I still smelled the dog, I have an acute olfactory sensory system, so it was a little discerning, but it is back. Most of  the effected by the blood clot deal are younger women, so not a big worry, be the shits, if I died from a vaccine to protect me from a perhaps benign virus, at least to me, perhaps, not sure. But all is well in my health world, as long as I eat little and exercise, my symptoms seem to be abated, perhaps, one day I will [...]

who can we trust, Trust In God

2021-04-08T06:38:42-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have to admit, I trust nobody on this earth, I know that is dark and kinda sad, but true. I also know that I am perhaps a fool to share such a thing.  Maybe it is what I get, my penance for a life devoted to the pursuit of fun and happiness. My question to myself, what do I need to even trust anyone with? well that is the point, I really have nothing to need to trust anyone with.  My problem? self created for sure. my problem is that, I see people, I see them for what they are, for what we all are. We live in these shells, confined within these bodies, with so much external stimuli, it often overrides our sense of selves. [...]

The Obama files all over again :( hopefully this is temporary

2021-04-08T05:42:01-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well, so far it is the same thing that happened when Obama was elected, the jobs I am bidding are mostly shysters,  I got one bid to paint a house, which ended up being a complete scam, they even sent a fraudulent down payment, another from a hillbilly who was trying to repair his patio, it was built wrong, and he wanted me to build it wrong again, "he could do it himself, but he wanted to have fun on the lakes" yea right, I told him, his design was flawed and I was not interested.  the list goes on and on. yesterday I get a call about some site work, they had no plan, he had some big ideas, told me I needed a d6, which [...]

My Anguish, my life, not to be liked, perhaps understood? perhaps self understanding, finding NEMO

2021-04-07T08:27:06-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

What makes me tick?  I wonder at times, well I know it is me ticker, but more than that, what drives me forward. Self Awareness can be a long journey, I mean looking back at times in  my life, what was driving me?  from an early age, the only real driver was self preservation, that was done by muting my feelings, the feelings around me with former favorite concoction Booze. I am not sure I could have survived without it. looking back it was my friend. Everytime I took that first drink, the world looked rosey, I was suddenly optimistic about life, even though I had no Idea, how the night would end. That one moment, I was normal. I loved going on drinking binges, after choking [...]

friends, what are they, here are mine…

2021-04-06T09:45:28-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

The first friend that I can ever remember was Steve Benson, we lived in Hawthorne California, we lived in a small bungalow type house, they lived in the same homes, I think, not sure maybe ask me mom. He has passed a few years ago, heart attack, before I ever got to see him, he lived on the west side of phoenix, I went to his funeral, it was sad, his brother and parents were already dead. I could have reached out better, in the old days, I would reach out to people, happy go lucky I was, my trust of humans has been forever lost. I could have brought him to meet my dad again, his dad and mine were drinking buds, I think. Steve Benson, [...]

Church a sanctuary a place of JOY

2021-04-06T06:25:58-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Joy to the World.  I am not sure if the last post had made the impression that I am anti-church or religion, to the contrary, there is something great about singing the praises of and celebrating faith, so much power in music.  The positive energy created when a group can sing and dance and worship, that is Awesome, maybe a few words, the fewer the better, Children and Dogs learn by positive affirmations, when you put self doubt in peoples minds, you create confusion.  Some people are born the way they are, or molded that way, to try and break the mold in an hour service is, well far fetched. The power of having God on your side, that one simple thought, can bring relief and joy.  [...]

Happy Easter today, or happy easter bunny day

2021-04-06T06:10:29-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Easter, I remember growing up and looking forward to easter, my mom would make Easter bread, we would have a special dinner, and when we were young we would get Easter baskets, and when my parents were still married we went to church. Easter, what is it?   is it bunny day, or it it the celebration of the rise of jesus ascending to heaven after being crucified? Admittingly, I am a minimalist Christian, and have been accused of being somewhat of a pagan, by other church going "christians" I have no answer for why we are here, not one, of my own accord, but I believe with all my heart that there is a God, that we are not just some primordial ooze, that popped out of [...]

maybe cancel the new york times,

2021-04-03T06:31:43-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

we had switched from the local repetitive rag to the more proven New York times, the problem, our  delivered paper is thrown under the car, on purpose. the same monkey that deliverd our other paper, thinks it is cute to throw the paper under the cars. but it is pesky, I try to say at least i'm staying limber :) and really how can you blame him, he does a child's job, and poorly,  just pesky, just thought of that since am going out to get it, have a great day happy easter bunny day. tomorrow or he has risen day, whatever floats your boat

Manufactured Rasizm, is alive and well

2021-04-03T06:27:58-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have no idea what they are thinking. none zilch So there is the Dr hymen, he wrote a book the Pegan diet, it is actually decent, but it tries to copy shit hat is not good for you, you will never copy a real pancake forget it. learn to eat different. But that is not my rant. My rant is they had this black lady on about the racist food system, this is clear manufactured race h8t, perpetrated by others, Sure maybe they have some issues, but the whole problem has nothing to do with race, THIS IS GREED GREED GREED, any people who run around saying the "whites are racist" are delusional, stupid to the core. YOU are being mislead, everybody is being mislead. The [...]

got my shot, not at the title, but in the ARm J&J one shot deal

2021-04-03T06:00:44-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, I got vaccinated, had been worried since this whole virus thingy came out,  Since the Cancer I do not know what my body is up to. I  tend to keep  away from people and do not like being that close to strangers as a general rule. I have given a few hugs, not to strangers. everyone has their personal space, mine is bigger than most, i like to keep at least sucker punch distance, LOL It is true, mater of fact, have not been sucker punched much over the years, because of that rule,  a couple of times in crowded bars, but  being drunk, my personal space was not working no, I was never the chest bumping idiots you see, or argueing at close range, dumb [...]

Mind expansion, my project… ME

2021-04-03T05:40:51-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have undertaken two new learning adventures, the Guitar and photography, slowly but surely, learning 4 chords right now, my fingers are getting better at not dampening strings practice is the key, still working on the switching, it is funny how one min, I do great, the next time, cant seem to hold or switch, muscle memory, guitar was one of the things I had always said "I am no good at that"" well just like anything else I wanted to learn, I have not let peoples opinion of my lack of skills or natural talent to dissuade me from continuing, as in singing, I have always been told I cant sing, well I can learn to sing too, it just takes motivation and practice, I even [...]

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