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April 2021

Church a sanctuary a place of JOY

2021-04-06T06:25:58-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Joy to the World.  I am not sure if the last post had made the impression that I am anti-church or religion, to the contrary, there is something great about singing the praises of and celebrating faith, so much power in music.  The positive energy created when a group can sing and dance and worship, that is Awesome, maybe a few words, the fewer the better, Children and Dogs learn by positive affirmations, when you put self doubt in peoples minds, you create confusion.  Some people are born the way they are, or molded that way, to try and break the mold in an hour service is, well far fetched. The power of having God on your side, that one simple thought, can bring relief and joy.  [...]

Happy Easter today, or happy easter bunny day

2021-04-06T06:10:29-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Easter, I remember growing up and looking forward to easter, my mom would make Easter bread, we would have a special dinner, and when we were young we would get Easter baskets, and when my parents were still married we went to church. Easter, what is it?   is it bunny day, or it it the celebration of the rise of jesus ascending to heaven after being crucified? Admittingly, I am a minimalist Christian, and have been accused of being somewhat of a pagan, by other church going "christians" I have no answer for why we are here, not one, of my own accord, but I believe with all my heart that there is a God, that we are not just some primordial ooze, that popped out of [...]

maybe cancel the new york times,

2021-04-03T06:31:43-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

we had switched from the local repetitive rag to the more proven New York times, the problem, our  delivered paper is thrown under the car, on purpose. the same monkey that deliverd our other paper, thinks it is cute to throw the paper under the cars. but it is pesky, I try to say at least i'm staying limber :) and really how can you blame him, he does a child's job, and poorly,  just pesky, just thought of that since am going out to get it, have a great day happy easter bunny day. tomorrow or he has risen day, whatever floats your boat

Manufactured Rasizm, is alive and well

2021-04-03T06:27:58-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have no idea what they are thinking. none zilch So there is the Dr hymen, he wrote a book the Pegan diet, it is actually decent, but it tries to copy shit hat is not good for you, you will never copy a real pancake forget it. learn to eat different. But that is not my rant. My rant is they had this black lady on about the racist food system, this is clear manufactured race h8t, perpetrated by others, Sure maybe they have some issues, but the whole problem has nothing to do with race, THIS IS GREED GREED GREED, any people who run around saying the "whites are racist" are delusional, stupid to the core. YOU are being mislead, everybody is being mislead. The [...]

got my shot, not at the title, but in the ARm J&J one shot deal

2021-04-03T06:00:44-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, I got vaccinated, had been worried since this whole virus thingy came out,  Since the Cancer I do not know what my body is up to. I  tend to keep  away from people and do not like being that close to strangers as a general rule. I have given a few hugs, not to strangers. everyone has their personal space, mine is bigger than most, i like to keep at least sucker punch distance, LOL It is true, mater of fact, have not been sucker punched much over the years, because of that rule,  a couple of times in crowded bars, but  being drunk, my personal space was not working no, I was never the chest bumping idiots you see, or argueing at close range, dumb [...]

Mind expansion, my project… ME

2021-04-03T05:40:51-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have undertaken two new learning adventures, the Guitar and photography, slowly but surely, learning 4 chords right now, my fingers are getting better at not dampening strings practice is the key, still working on the switching, it is funny how one min, I do great, the next time, cant seem to hold or switch, muscle memory, guitar was one of the things I had always said "I am no good at that"" well just like anything else I wanted to learn, I have not let peoples opinion of my lack of skills or natural talent to dissuade me from continuing, as in singing, I have always been told I cant sing, well I can learn to sing too, it just takes motivation and practice, I even [...]

Painting to pool today, well touch up

2021-04-03T05:27:28-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

going to eposy the pool, well last time I ran out of the good epoxy and had to buy some from leslies pool supply, which is runny and a different color white, so this time we bought some blue, for the water line and going to add some sand to the steps, and for the google earth deal, going to put a happy face, using the drains as eyes, and the diving board as the tongue, sweet mary's says painting the diving board pink not a good idea ;/

New game, childs play

2021-04-03T05:20:53-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I bought a new game, on the advice of me brother Elijah, and as usual he disappeared... anyway, it is not as  good as battlefield4 but it is different, more like an updated version of counterstrike from the old days, my first game was Quake, then QuakeII back then you had to create scripts to make  specific key bindings, now its all just clickety click, nice. This new game has more youngsters for sure. it runs ok on my PC, the biggest thing is that this plays on game consoles, which I do not have, and have not had one since we had an Activision game in the early 80's Anchorage. well we tried some nintendo deal, but that was a waste, I had always wante dto [...]

Not your kind of Native, I have relinquished my interest your NaTive culture

2021-04-02T06:37:29-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

So, it has been a long way, embracing my Native Ancestry, and on the same swoop, turning away from the Native  culture of today, which is not Native, but more in line of a governmental puppet system. that is not to say, that I will not accept any measly payments that they decide to sprinkle on the ground, or jobs or benefits, that may be of benefit, no that would be lame, but I have not interest in your dealing, and except for checking if the mail has a check in it,  eye see no reason to read your propaganda, just like the koniag letter they all go into the trash unread.  My thinking is now, to pass down the shares, even though my family has integrated [...]

Why I Question our Existence? why ask why?

2021-04-02T06:24:37-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Why ask why? I dont really know, but I have always wanted to learn more, not just something, or enough, I have always went overboard in my learning more, maybe it was a book my mom got me when I was younger,  it was how things work or something of that nature. But that was not the start of me questioning our culture or world, our existence, no that came with my cancer, I admit, I was just another drone, a meaningless cog in a world of cogs. There have always been hints, like the Marijuana issue, especially me being a drunken fool, consistently doing stupid shit, under the spell of booze. Nothing has gripped my life like the drink. smoke some pot, I turned into [...]

O Wendy what went wrong :(

2021-04-02T05:05:50-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Well another classmate has passed away, she looked so vibrant and healthy, she was one of the few I like to check up on, I had seen she was having some issues, but she looked fine. She was very popular back in the high school days, she was one of the coveted Sand Canyon Girls. this is a road south of town, which has lots of acreage homes, horse properties if you will, She was a beauty, inside and out. she had a love for her family and her pets. so unfair. I always feel bad that I did not reach out and say hi, but life is complicated, I knew here in my sophomore year at Canyon High, her besty or one of them was Holly [...]

March 2021

We are a Cancer on the Earth beloved humans

2021-03-27T07:03:40-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

We are all blind, well most of us I woke up last night as my usual wakefulness, and the tv was on, I switched to netflix  and put on a boring documentary about the Oceans. that usually puts me back to sleep, not last night, at least until I seen, what I already knew from watching the Cowlicious documentary about how our farms and cows are already polluting the Earth. It is good we have all these issues for people to bitch about, yet the real important ones, the future of the EArth is at stake!! no shit sherlock well maybe overstated, it may take another 100 years of killing off the oceans and most of the creatures, so I as most of you will be all [...]

harsh realities of being overweight, sudden death

2021-03-28T04:42:42-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I feel very grateful to have lived 58 years on this planet, there are many that do not, I was once working on the hill building downtown Anchorage with this laborer seemed heatlthy enough, he died suddenly, he was 38. my cousin Peter died suddenly, he was about the same age, food addiction is nothing to sluff off, when we die, our story stops, over, nothing, except the words and memories of "others" sure you dead, in heaven perhaps? that is another story.. This is serious business, we have become lackadaisical  in our health, we have become sheep, at least I was, Cancer and the whole Medical Dynasty has opened up my eyes to a huge health problem, heart attacks are caused by diet, the food you eat, [...]

Seattle the Emerald state

2021-03-24T06:47:16-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I do miss Seattle at times, the water is everywhere, the green trees, the lakes, the woods. They tore down my old high School, Lynwood high school, I tried to add it to schools that I had attended, and was only able to add Meadowdale, not even sure I know where that school is :/ Facebook hey, facebook, why you delete my school from existence? why? why? they having a 40 year reunion, I dont remember too many people from back then, a handful, Brian Amend, Kenny Snyder and his sister. Joe and John roach, RIP John, Pat Brock, and Joy S, her brother Dave. she and Pat were on again off again, had a small crush on that blond, but she was pats girl friday of [...]

Health is Wealth

2021-03-24T05:59:28-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

it seems like poppy cock borgladash, but it is true, dead men tell no tales, or enjoy their pot of gold. you cant take it with you holmes, sherlock that is, not vato hahahah funny to self Anyway, I feel fine, I am under some weird issues, but I feel fine, my mind is sharper than ever, except when doing tile, or electrical or plumbing, but I am learning, and after all, I have fired more electricians, and plumber for lack of competence or shady business practices, but doing the work is harder than, knowing how it is supposed to be done, anyway this is a health update. I am still doing the same diet, Salads, made by my mostly sweet Mary :)  protein, eggs, raw, soft [...]

Bathroom almost complete, not liking working from home :/

2021-03-24T05:14:36-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Working from home, brings a whole can of worms, especially when your a contractor, a General Contractor, that means, I know how things should be completed, but it does not mean that I have all the skills or patience to do all of them, well, not yet. truthfully, I can not see doing a full bathroom remodel at a customer house, that they are living in, especially a Master bath. maybe if they moved out. We are really pleased with the new shower jetted tub combination bathroom, but it was a tough project, we extended into the garage 4 ft and added a jetted tub. for me the toughest part was the tile, my main concern was water managment, and making sure of not future damage, no [...]

RIP Uncle Frank!!

2021-03-12T08:38:08-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have found out that my Uncle Frank Pagano has passed away recently, I always had a good time visiting with Uncle frank over the years. He was a rare individual from old school Kodiak, He was always about family, that has always been a high priority with him and my Auntie May. I could spend hours talking and visiting with him, and always wanting more, that is rare for me, he was direct, honest and to the point, no mixing words. In these days of political correctness, it was a rare treat to visit with him and see his point of view. He was a leader. I respected his insight and views, and often agreed with him. he came under fire in recent years and had [...]

Alaska Native CLarification of: all things thought and sought

2021-03-06T11:11:39-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I know I have been slamming the Native community for being hoodwinked into the whole Business farse, but in reality.... It is still a farce, as distraction, but there have been lots of Progress in the years since their inception, not so much in Kodiak, where the emphasis is only on business, well mostly. The main issue, that I have, and really it is not a personal issue, but from where I stand, looking in..  the CEO of Koniag, my Regional Corporation makes 500 grand a year. yeah, I mean 100 grand a year is alot of money, now that is not the main issue, The amount of scholarships that were doled out to Koniag shareholders was less than his salary. This is, or shows where the [...]

business as usual

2021-03-06T10:28:31-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well got most of the worst part of the tile  and other stone work done in the bathroom, now starting  on the shower plumbing, I have decided to connect directly off the water heater and inlet to the water heater for the hold and cold in the new shower, and that went pretty smooth, except for buying the wrong size shark bite fittings, and had to do a major take back, but that is what is really good about home depot, it would be a nightmare dealing with the plumbing supply houses, the old days, and those shark bites, great invention, but still need to make sure they do not leak. for the new Jetted tub, I just used the old connections, which run from the sinks [...]

Copper Gaylore galore huh? wth..

2021-03-04T10:47:59-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I dont know where I get this headlines they just pop into me brain OK, so I have been connecting with my Native American side, in a more meaningful way, lately, and that brought me to the plight of  the local San Carlos Apache band, which had been relocated from Rich Copper land, the land which sits near superior and runs all the way up to Miami and Globe, the destruction is clear, raped land, raped and barren, it looks kinda cool in some places, but compared to the existing paradise, it is a shame, Oak Flats Campground, it is Beautiful, I can see why the Apache band loves this land, it is in the desert, but Not. so close but so far, you head to superior, [...]

good times bad times

2021-03-04T09:41:49-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well had gig to do, ended up bailing, it was a classic bait and switch, nice  sweet customer turns into ATTILLA the hun, so I show up to modify an underground driveway, simple enough, well tough job, but no problem, I was ready to work, they were having problems with their small cars  and being able to get them into the basement.  I asked them to drive down so I could make sure I get the right adjustments, NO WAY, I almost burned up my clutch, hmm that is not my problem, learn how to drive with a  clutch, or get an automatic, I burned up my share of clutches, so alright I could figure it out with some boards, her front end clearance was only 3" [...]

the challenges of living a stress free life… what they be?

2021-03-02T08:34:18-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well today for me, I was thinking this pre workout stuff, which is said to burn fat better, than without using it, at least to clinical studies, hard to drink, I was thinking I would guzzle down some rock gut whiskey, not often, but even worse, have you ever drank Mad Dog 20/20, that shit is nasty, we grew up on boonze farm, southern comfort and Michelob beer, at least in SC, we used to go to the local 7/11 and ask strangers to buy us some beer, with our money of course, but it never took longer than a few minutes, crazy huh? The Marijuana from those days was called "Commercial" it was all sticks and stems,  and it was harsh stuff, and you had to [...]

mind your own business and you wont be minding mine ;/

2021-03-01T13:36:20-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

haahhah but we all like to hear what is going on in each others lives, well well what have we here. I know, I have been on kinda a negative, monstrous tear lately, hopefully I will be getting a better perspective, but actually have been on a life epiphany of sorts. I still live by dont sweat the small things, I am breathing walking, talking and still have freedom of movement, free speech and my mental facilities, although I am sure that can and always will be subjective ;) My thought today, as I venture forth into our world. relationships and who's business is it?  disclaimer: this are my opinions, and they are subject to change, without warning or notice I do not think, parents, friends, children [...]

February 2021

strike 3 your out

2021-02-28T13:26:22-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I stuck out today, It was awful, not the end of the world, far worse things can happen, it was right before I was slated to pitch an inning. my focus was no longer on batting, I had gotten 1 good shot for a double on the day, the others should have been played, but I did scor3 three times. love to score!! Rusty on the mound, had lots of power no control had to tone it down, didn't help my "team mates, and their negative banter"  the enemy within, I could do a whole book on just team dynamics and why it is so important, the old saying if you do not have something good to say..... well you get the point, some of them are [...]

BEAUTY, in the Eye of the Beholder?

2021-02-28T06:33:38-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

What is beauty? I see beauty as something that makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, like a sunset warms the soul. I see beauty in good people, nice people, a rare commodity in this age of the fast paced phone world. Since being a child and my first crush Trisha Pyron in the 5th grade, I have  been aware of what I thought was beautiful, I remember I was worried that maybe it would change over the years and I would no longer think the same, seems an odd thought, but that was my thinking in the 5th grade. In hindsight, looking back on my early years, although Trisha was my first crush, I had many others, well I grew up in Southern California, and you [...]

What is in a Name? Gratitude for those that REPRESENT families

2021-02-27T12:27:46-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Family Names come and go, families come and go.  This piece of work ahhah my brother gilbert used to say " he was a real piece of work" as in a piece of shit, anyway this one is about Those People in our lives, that are not their by birth, but by choice. Let start with my Grandfather Howard Carlough who represented for the Monson Clan,  and then there was Oscar Monson who represented for the Thorlakson Clan, and then on my Dad Side, Kelly Simeonoff, who adopted my father into his clan for the Ingram Clan. These are exemplary things, to give a person a name, one he  can be proud of, I was always  proud of the Simeonoff name, and wore it like a [...]

bathroom coming along

2021-02-27T11:15:14-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

the bathroom is coming along, I do not like tile work, it is the mixing, the dry pack is ok, but that thinset man it sticks to your hands. I put some chairs in, next time, I will know better than just trying to do it on the fly, I would not do these bathrooms on my own. sub out the tile fo sure. nightmare, can not imagine working in someones house doing that work, I think it will turn out ok though. going to be a master piece. but I see all of my mistakes :/  not perfect, maybe next time, will spend more time on the wall tiles. awful work, dirty work, yuck a mess.

my biggest issue, is the 2nd Amendment it should be your too

2021-02-27T11:11:32-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

This is a big issue, bigger than the first Amendment. this is the only law that gives power to the people.  I am ok with the people that dont like guns oar think they should be banned, but  I do have issue with it. For one thing. We live in the Age of Peace and relative safety, we get all uptight when a few hundred people are gunned down, oooo ahhhhhhhh oooooo ahhhhhh OUTLAW guns, maybe you should learn some history?  One of the greatest Nations ever was ROME, do you think the people thought they were so powerful, that they could feel safe, this is just one county, How about the American Indians?  Genocide has been more the Norm than an aberration. not just  14, 30 [...]

Racist Rant I have 2 its criminal

2021-02-27T10:42:28-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, I have a rant, I have been watching the news, where Asian people are being assaulted, this makes me sick,  Racism of any kind is  wrong, but targeting innocents people is downright despicable. Have we not grown past the World War years? Japanese internment camps? I think we are headed towards darker times, I do not see this just going away. There are lots of things that do not seem right. is this shit that goes on all the time, and now the press is reporting on it?  Our News is so backwards, we may have free speech, but were fed propaganda 24/7  

my granny

2021-02-27T10:34:16-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I like to remember my granny at times, she had lots of good insight for a Native, they were intertwined with the Russians, American and Native community. i find most of her thoughts still hold water to this day. She used to talk about how,  she was glad she married one of her own kind, both Native, and white, mixed, I think they were mostly Russian and Native, but who knows, I often wonder if there is some real truth behind this. I wonder how many mixed, as in White people marry Natives and do whatever possible to subjugate or in some cases downright sabotage them?  my imagination runs deep, maybe they are even paid to do so?   Dark thoughts? ANTS? no just wondering as you know [...]

out of my comfort zone

2021-02-27T10:18:08-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have been doing  these video clips singing, or trying to :/ THEY ARE FUN I have to admit it is hard to watch, but if I can not take the heat get out of the kitchen.  fun to do though, even learning some guitar, very slowly. have to keep my mental capacity up there, do not want to end up like pops, so sad. here is the full clip just sharing me myself and eye

what is going on in my life

2021-02-22T06:53:25-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well glad you asked :/ I will be putting a big effort into getting this bathroom finished, with an eye on new jobs, have  few bites. geting excited about the shower, we bought a 12" shower deal with a wand, good reviews, got the tiles picked out, just have to run some more plumbing and wires, but the end is near, just have to push a little harder, then a nice jacuzzi tub and shower, I was going to put in 2 shower heads, but this 12 incher should be wonderful. the kids are all doing ok, feel detached, like life is not fair, they all have their own lives, what use am eye? has been washed up old man, perhaps dying, perhaps a hypochondriacs , perhaps [...]

The perfect world? what is it? let me tell YOU

2021-02-22T06:33:51-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I do a lot of whining and complaining about our society and our world, yes it is true, at 58 years, I have seen the light. I have become a student of history, WAr is our history, it is the history of man I feel very blessed, that I even have the ability to journal like this, in china, or Russia, I might be thrown into prison, or worse if I was in Syria, I would be tortured and killed. This I know is true. Most of us are so caught up in just survival, or paying bills mortgage, raising kids, that we never get a chance to "smell the roses" or in my case, analyze the truth. No matter what country you live in, you are [...]

rehashing old posts reiterate incinerate..

2021-02-19T05:33:13-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

Ok, so I have a few disclaimers: racism is bad, I do not judge people for things they can not change. We are all born into this earth in a pre-set format. We have no choice. we do have a choice, at least some of us eventually. Racism is cultural, it starts at the bottom and works it's way up.  they have had all the segregation in schools, neighborhoods, everywhere except jails and prisons. until the little diddy is addressed it will always live on. was it created by prisonous? hell no. this is governmental greed, This has been hashed out of the same  old idea of controlling populations from the Roman days of conquer. give power to certain groups, give them benefits, and control the whole [...]

my outhouse rant, plumbing the greatest invention EVER

2021-02-18T06:13:30-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

We just flush, where does it go? who cares its gone. we take for granted one of, if not the most significant modern conception, the sewage system, they turn that turd you just flushed into drinking water, well drinkable water anyway, not sure if anyone drinks it of all the advances, this for me is the best, at least in the cities, my dark mind often says, look at all these people in the cities, a whole lot of shit yeah I said it shit, my ma, used to say "SHIT"  almost half funny, but we are a clean  society, well at least not piles of the stuff everywhere, can you imagine all these people crapping all over the place? nfw Then there was the great toilet [...]

my thyroid journey

2021-02-17T07:44:29-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well I continue on my thyroid quest, I feel great, except when I dont. last night I had a great invention, Chicken gizzards and hearts, with garlic, mushrooms, onions, and mini tomatoes all fried up in coconut oil on the stove, it was seasoned with red peppers, garlic salt and crushed black pepper, it turned out delicous, I even liked the crunchy gizzards, which can be pesky for lunch I had 4 soft boiled eggs, I like when the center yellow is runny liquid, so good, such good vitamins. I even slipped and had a butter sandwich, which consist of  butter slathered between 2 pieces of dave's killer bread Powerseed, sweetened with organic jucies, only 1 gram per slice. butter is listed as a  thyroid helper. for [...]

PERTINENT DOCS

2021-02-17T07:07:23-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

YES IT IS TRUE, i bite the hand that feeds me, or in this case, that saved me from rotting away. I feel it is time for one of my disclaimers:  Getting a potential life ending cancer is one of the most life changing or ending things that can happen to you, or in this case me. Some may think I hold resentments, h8t or loathing for the institution that saved me from rotting away, or worse dying under the hands of some Dokter jekyll. That statement could not be further from the truth. But, yeah always  a butt when faced with meeting my maker, my penchant for searches became a "Quest" my quest started after the surgery, The Mayo, went into Cancer mode, I was [...]

the fun begins 8 hrs in the Operating room, WTH happened in there?

2021-02-16T08:09:46-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

So when I was diagnosed with stage 4 throat cancer, things happened very fast, after the Pet scan they scheduled a radical neck dissection, this is major surgery, I was prepped and said it would be about an hour, it was all surreal, the last thing I remember was them injecting me, then I awoke to in the recovery room,  I had to pee, I had no Idea what was going 0n, It was almost as a dream, I just remember I had to pee, real bad, and the pressure kept building up. A nurse, i presume was asking me if I was a tough guy, some nonesense like that, and I just remember trying to get her  attention, that I had to pee, I kept reachign [...]

race is them, not me, them whites

2021-02-15T08:17:01-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I know that i Have mentioned this before, but I have been thinking about it again, with the shit show that is our lives, but White is a racist word, it has become the equivalent of the N word. "he is white"  that is a fkn slur, or I am "white" that is as racist ass you can get. I hear it now and cringe. Society has been able to loop all of everyone into a bleached white category, and nobody seems to notice.  this word is used to either promote Nazism or demonize people of caucasian ancestry. this is as plain as the nose on my face. eye for one am sick of it. I am not proud to be white, but I am proud to [...]

all the kings men, could not put humpty dumpty back togehter

2021-02-15T06:17:22-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

well that sums up how I feel about my health :( I know that the cancer put a damper on my life expectancy, and the treatment, well it was just as devastating.  spilled milk now, the milk has been spilled, not much i can do except scoop some back in. I see people going through stressful times, and overeating and if there can be any kind of warning, just look at me, I may beyond the help of diet and exersize, but the worst culprit is stress, it will kill you :( sad but true when I was drinking, stress was minimal, when I was gulping down whatever poison suited my fancy, not until I woke up did the stress start again, and sometimes, I just kept [...]

a little adversity never hurt anyone, or did it?

2021-02-11T08:14:26-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

my life if full of adversity, The Stage 4 throat cancer is in the top ten, but my adversity of living with one eyeball has been a tougher sell, you know how many companies, want a  one eyed carpenter?  they prefer to run you off, especially in Arizona, but it is pervasive, I worked my ass off, and gave 100 percent of every job, what gave me this courage against all odds? what gave me the confidence to pull it off for many years?  MY BRO tally, helped, he once said, if another man can do it, I can do it. that and I have always, thought I was better, faster, the was from baseball, I played well, as a kid, without and real training, [...]

War and life? is war life? why do we have to be in battle

2021-02-11T07:34:10-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

I have had an epiphany of sorts recently, not a big one, but an epiphany of sorts I like to check up on people on Facebook, and see what they are up to, as I do not follow but a handful anymore, but recently checking up on my cousin Jim, I came across a post he had about the 33 strategies of War by Robert Greene, also writer of the 48 laws of power. Disclaimer: if I have to resort to "tactics" with people, I prefer to just minimize contact or delete contact, but in the world of " I HAVE BILLS TO PAY" that is not an option. One thing I realized listening to these War tactics, is that I have already integrated most [...]

my new found love, me self, self love baby

2021-02-07T12:50:45-07:00Categories: my bullshit|

not masturbation either, but love thyself I know kinda goofy, kinda silly, kinda self centered? I have come to embrace my self, I have come to embrace that I am  a Native American, specifically an Eskimo (yupik/Inuit, mom says yupik, dna says Inuit, but they both were near the same area, near Nome, Alaska) my Aleut, and Athabascan roots, too,  which are supiaq or some other new Politically corrected, how do they even know, how to translate to english? by sound, was there an alphabet? that better left to the scholars.  I am Native, and Proud to be Native, yes, and I am embracing being Native, not for entitlements, but for the sheer joy of being proud of my ancestral past, that also mean  I am proud [...]

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