Well, I had a setback, been eating some butter sandwiches, they are delicious, I did use healthy bread, but ate  few too many, setback are part of the whole trying to get healthy body and mind journey for me.  I am sure there are some people that just hop right in on these things and are one and done, i have a lifetime of bad habits, and demons to battle, right up my alley, but it is a quest, and still in the back of my mind, I say is it all worth it?

I see how people just say, ok, I’m out, of the rat race, the relations roller coaster and just say fuck it.

I really try to have fun in life, that has been my mission, I mean, why else would we even bother? right? are we content to work our assess off and then just croak?

I really like this stoic deal, it is in line with my thinking, and has even, added depth to my already, askew view of the world, but it makes it clear, as mud, but that is what is clear, nobody knows anything.

I bought this Nook book on Socrates, he was not a stoic, but some of their principles are stolen from him, via plato, WOW, cant believe I am reading this stuff, I just always thought it was about Gods and fire and all that dragon shit, not to mention the toga.

ON a side note: in Washington, during high school, I went to a toga party, no, I did not wear one, just went to drink, it was lame.

So this cat Socrates had some good thinking, here is one of his quips

“MY ADVISE TO YOU IS TO GET MARRIED: FIND A GOOD WIFE AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY; IF NOT, YOU WILL BECOME A PHILOSOPHER”

AHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHA ……………….HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

here is another “THOU SHOULD EAT TO LIVE; NOT LIVE TO EAT.”

I can attest that one is hard, I made some salmon tonight, 2 pieces in butter tumeric and garlic salt, grilled, was taste, and then ate a 1/2 pound of vegetable and a giant salad with olive oil and vinegar, hopefully I can stay away from the butter sandwiches, I’ve been eating grapes, blueberries with a dash of honey in some organic yogurt for snack, and an orange to wash it down. I had 4 soft boiled eggs for lunch.  I still feel like im overdoing it, but it is a good time to eat

The other thing that he had a quip about was death, which is as natural as rain

“THE HOUR OF DEPARTURE HAS ARRIVED, AND WE GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS, ME TO DIE, AND YOU TO LIVE. WHICH OF THESE IS BETTER? ONLY GOD KNOWS.”

“ALL I KNOW IS THAT I KNOW NOTHING”

I know a lot of people that are a lot less savvy, than this bird, that could use a dose of that quip, hell we all could, we would have much less misery in our lives, like people who blindly follow  anyone who acts like they know an answer to everything, that is why they call them “Actors” they are acting, and you bought it, hook line and sinker.  what a novel thought, thinking for ourselves.

ok, enough of my hocus pocus bullshit

got a few jobs to do, I am enjoying working, did a job and was nice to visit and work for this couple, a goodtime,  fun to meet other people do a good job. drawing some plans for  a small remodel, hope I did not underbid, I will find out when I start jackhammering :/

So, back to Socrates and the stoics, the main things, that I Do not like, and they have no proof either, is the lack of a god, I do not like having the option of asking God for an answer, albeit it is rare, but divinity is awesome, Everlasting life, I mean, how can it get any better, soaring thru the Universe at warp speed, traveling from place to place. what is your Idea of heaven, sitting around a table talking about scripture? do we have feelings in heaven, or are we just robots? Sarah? Robots?  anyway,  I never hear how all that plays out, you think they would have some answers, all these preachers and prophets, “thee shall not worship no false Gods” well we can only  go through  the motions, until we meet our maker, believe and wish, it makes life more optimistic,

ok enough of my slliness, I do like to write my journal, helps me to soak in this stuff. O O, another quip, he talks about living to make money, money and more money, a life spent making money.

“AND SO THEY GROW RICHER AND RICHER, AND THE MORE THEY THIK OF MAKING A FOURTUNE, THE LESS THEY THINK OF VIRTUE; FOR WHEN RICHES AND VIRTUE ARE PLACED TOGETHER IN THE SCALES OF THE BALANCE, THE ONE ALWAYS RISES THE OTHER FALLS” it goes blah blha blah after that, but you get the gist

the other thing, I was not liking was how they say, you need to get about your business, this is one for brainwashing, of sending people out to slave away, but that is not Socrates, but one of the stoics, I was reading it, kind of thinking, well maybe I should work harder, faster, harder, but something was amiss, and I had an awakening on a Facebook post, under the comments, another student of life, mentioned the slave brainwashing, yes, no way. We have to work, but this seemed fishy. work smart, live smart, do not kill yourself working for the man, I say more important, find works that you can live a life doing, good works, but above all, be a good person, I think there can be nothing more important, it is rare to find good people, I treasure them, nobody is perfect, but there are some great jewels on this earth, that make life, the treasure it was meant to be.

good night