So let me tell you. I had no idea. I had been through hell the last year or so. My problem stems from hypothyroidism, caused by radiation, and maybe even the chemo, that some poison for sure. look up demodex mites. these little creatures live on all of us. maybe not the people with perfect skin. if i see someone without a blemish, then maybe they bug free. it is a fucking nightmare. I have beaten the bugs into submission. they say you can never eradicate them, which is probally true, since they are everywhere, in the air, in the food, on your face, in your hair, some people are infested as I was, but with a caveat, they have no idea they are brimming with bugs. O lordy lordy I can not say enough of how grateful I am to finally be at an end of the bugs. here are some tips. first rule is to forget the microscopic bugs exist to anyone, but yourself. they will want to sign you up to the Koo coo farm. the doctors even the best of them, will never give you the real line on these creatures. I personally belive they are the culprit of all skin problems. it is a huge industry, and if all they have to do is eradicate bugs, no money in that. like applieances and cars of today, cant sell more cars or dishwashers if they work forever. I warn you this. if you have nice hair and want to keep it. you had better take care of it, not so much the hair, as your scalp. it was easy in the old west, just get scalpled, then no more bugs ahhahahha jk folks, dont get your panties in a wad. (claire cooper, southern belle taught me that one) seriously. keep your scalp clean. I am de-crapping my scalp now. not only my scalp, my face had lots of bio film built up on it. but the scalp WOW. my head is smaller now. my cheekbones exposed, chin exposed.
if you have a beard, call that the bug cave. just take my warning. clean your scalp with dandruff shampoos, do not use anythiing that builds up and can be used as binder for buildup. johnsons baby shampoo is real good also. get to know your scalp, all the bones, ridges, and bumps, do not belong for sure, mine is like a baby scalp now,well a few bumps left, but I cleared most everything. I am sill astonished at how much i was unaware. I belive now, that you bald ass mother fuckers do not have to be so, just make sure you get the right foods and supplements and clean your scalp like your hair depends on it. you always see these young people with the best hair EVER, well that is a bug hidiing paradise, and with all the buildup you will never kmow they destroying all your follicels until nothing is left.
that is what i belive. ladies get a start on this asap. here is the magic cleaner of bugs benzyl benzoate this shit will burn your eyes, in my case EYE. one thing that made this so difficult was that I had this buildup on my scalp, which includes fungus, yeast, biofilm and bug shit hahah ok not sure about the bug shit part, but it was 1/4″ thick when at its worst. it looks like normal skin, has hair everything, it is the perfect trojan horse. I feel relieved. No help from doctors, well until recenly, when I dropped the bug jargon, and incorporated the psoriasis foccilitius jargon, because that is what they treat, and fungus, and once its in the follicle, you need pills like toenail fungus, I battled that shit for years, and finally with pills got rid of it. if you just want to be precautious, I would get some blackseed oil or MCT oil and massage you scalp, feel for anything that does not belong, rough patches bumps, whatever. here is another good thing was this salt hair tonic from walmart “dandyman sea salt spray, it melts down that crap. since being back home, I have been focusing on self care, feeling better, still a little lovesick, but it will wear off, I remembering the last time I got lovesick, well I had this customer, sabine, she came from germany, a track star of some kind, and I actually talked to her, she was magnificent, and had my blood purcolating. my brother said she reminded him a boy, but she was all woman, and them some. I remember asking when she was going to have some babies, she was amused, but then I saw on instagram, walah, she had a son. She is a supermom. yeah I still feel her in my bones. anyway that benzl bezoate is good stuff used for scabies, and does not burn my skin, only thing that brought relief, and did not stink. tee tree oil is good, blackseed oil not stinky, but works slower. I would say as a precaustion to put that stuff in at least once a month. you can keep you skin clean by clearing your face with benzyl benzoate, just watch the eyes, burn baby burn. I am not using it to clean the bugs out, they scrape off easy enough with something like bb or even mct oil, be careful of coconuit oil, some say it feeds the mites, other say not, I prefer to err on the side of caution. So what is up with me? im getting my computers my camera and all my gadgets back up and running, I have some plans maybe for the next few months, but the wolves are going to be at the door if I dont find some work to do. HEY if anyone is reading this, ANYONE could you please let me know if I am on the right track with this lady, I think it her, but there are a few that also might be…. I think she will be at the line dance on friday, she drinks water. I tried to buy her a drink, and she only drank water. you can text me at 4803195890 I know she probally was unaware of my existence or that I am lovesick. she probally married with a bunch of kids and a happy life of a happy wife. ok that was uncalled for. for reals, I would never hurt my true love of mines. I live with all the clues, ignore the coincidences. I have to walk the walk, that is to live in the now, the ultimate mindfulness of life. maybe just writing this makes me cullpable, yet these are only words and mostly fiction anywaym conjured up by my wild imagination. like this love interest, whom I have never spoken, ore to all the women I have loved, I have loved them all, even ater getting kicked to the curb, ha, well there was only one, whom I remember says dont come back. shirley hutchnson of Anchorage. I was pretty rude to her friends, I was a pig, drunken pig anyway, like my son says remember only the good times, like when my and shirley would rehearse her plays, I would read with her, her rommates giving us high marks. she only had to tell me once, no more booty calls. she knew, I never tried to play myself off as a good boyfriend, well maybe a little when I first got married, who would marry a schmuck like me? someone just like me, that would sleep with me own brother after a 2 day breakup perhaps?
living in the now, means not beating oneself up or predicting, just right now, that reminds me, I write most when I am procrastinating, like now. see picture. i have to get all this in order so I can start planning out my next attack, unless I want to be a dumbass union carpenter again. I think I will have to be a white non union carpenter getting paid less money to do more work, that will suit me just fine. wow Im all over the place again, I told myself I would just write more stories, but my MO is to sneak in some stuff on more mundane shit. kapeesh “capisci”
whoa big fella. so here another tip for your hair and skin, tea tree oil and apple cider vinegar a must have if your even mildly infested. you can not rely on just one attack, this has been a war. doctor doctor give me the news. well guess what, they half assed mother fuckers. they will string your ass along for monthos of payments and bullshit. they overworked because nothing works, unless you target the mites. the workaround is to let them do thier bullshit psorisias folliculitis s and make sure they clear any and all fungus yeast, the rest will be up to you.
ok im boring myself right now, lets have some fun.
Ok so im rollerblading through then neighborhood. this lady is doing yardwork, and leaning over, wow she nice, how could I not look. some women look good with age. she is one of them, despite not being able to make babies, she was a pretty lady, well still is. the majority of them are like lesbians, born man haters, but at that age its a learned thing. men are pigs, me included. if it were socially and maritally acceptable, I would be bonking a different piece of tail weekly, only weekly cuz you can do the same one for at least a week before the passion lets up. hahah ok just writing a funny. you might think that i some kind of chauvanist pig, I think not. I was raised by my mom, she ruled with an iron fist 🙂 raised 5 kids with no child support from either parent, just help from johnny crawford a local drug dealer and my big brother, we were lucky enough to have access to the best drugs, angel dust, acid, and cocaine, althogh he didnt leave the coke in the fridge. I got into trouble with my thinking you can raise all the kids equally the same, well my precious was not having any of that. so much for my theory, maybe I was too weak, she learned the world is not fair many times. she and I will undoubtly learn more times, otherwise we taint pushign the envelope, I need to learn to play the game. all fair in love and war, im thinking as soon as they show thier colors, lets start putting them to the test. the problem arises when the money good, but really so far my approach sucks, nice guys finish whore a billy.
well well Mr dont we wear big pants
