Richard on the Side2020-12-29T08:48:37-07:00

My brothers keeper

Complicated, very complicated. I feel like my brother deserves a better life, that he is getting right now.  he lives in a Care facility in North Phoenix, close to a nightmare job I just completed. it was a nightmare, not the work, the situation, the people. ( an unlicensed contract: pretending to be the homeowner, a homeowner pretending not to be a flipper) but it does not compare to my brothers nightmare, not only will he never walk, but he lives in a nice house, that is true, but when you walk in it is DARK real dark, the Air is thick, I dont think they will ever get that smell out, if ever there was a breeding ground for respiratory infections, he has his own room, with a large TV. he never has to worry about working, paying bills. he has no teeth, his [...]

spiriling down down down ………………………………………………………BANG

Yes, we have hit rock bottom, yet another Covid 19 Variant, but they dont want to name it, because it has gone beyond ridiculous!! The President has no pants on. I hate to say it, but we are being led by an elderly Man, who may have dementia, or Alzheimer, THEY KNOW, it is no secret, he walks like he does not have control over his limbs, I saw the same thing in my Dad, I thought his legs were going out, but the brain loses its muscle memory on walking. I think he means well, but the problem is, now he is talking about sending troops to Ukraine, the Russian government has never shown any hesitation in sending troops into die. How about the United States give back lands to the Hawaiians, or the Alaskan Natives? They have been stripped of any Sovereignty, they [...]

A dogs life

I was looking at our dogs and thinking, if I live as expected, I am going to have to watch and see all of these dogs die, even the puppy. we knew this going in, we had just been through 3 other dogs, buggers:Mikey Oafy: Oliver and beanie: Pepper, we have a thing with nicknames. why would we subject ourselves to this again and again? I think the answer is clear, you can never feel so loved (except by a parent) as a properly loved and cared for pet. Sure, they are beggars, barkers and sometimes tough to train, but they will love you almost unconditionally, it is hard to get that from humans. at this moment I have to go to work, and the kitty is pestering on my keyboard. accepting your pets eventual death, is part of life, but on a much faster [...]

Cousins are our History

Well, I have been at it again, researching and working on my family tree in ancestry, lots of work, and fun at the same time. I have all these new cousins, I just want to share them with my brothers and other cousins, a dilemma for sure. Respecting their boundaries, yet sharing our connections, a trick proposition. My enthusiasm is alway muted by my scepticism. I feel like a pest, but how else do I get answers?  such a large family on the Ingrams, I still want to change my name, not sure if It will ever happen, I have been Simeonoff so long, but it is not the truth, Married people change their names without abandon, why not me. I would love for someone to ask my last name and not have to spell it out, or pronounce it, it was a curse, I [...]

finding peace in a chaotic world

Peace baby peace. just saying peace baby peace has  nice effect on my own self, or the other day I was saying "Thank you Jesus"  just for no reason but had heard in the the stones song, "then I ran 7 red lights" Today, I feel like dancing or making a video, or something fun.  I know I have to embrace the feeling, thank you Jesus 🙂  you know what? chickens butt, fried in grease, want a piece? hahahahhah funny to self So, I have 25 grand in credit card debt, the hospital and Ambulance is sending me bills for 5200 bones, jobs seem like the Obama years, they all a trap, you know, I do good when the working man does good, the rank and file Americans, these rich, or rich to me, over 100k  a year, are a bunch of cheap assholes. that [...]

what the hell tarnation is going on?

Ok, so my empathy has gotten away from me. the real story is that even as far back as medieval England, the poor have been expendable humans for the 1% of the rich landowners, this I learned from another great course from Wonderium, and in reality, it is not fair to vilify any people who just happen to be born on a better side of the tracks. We have all watched or heard of the rich heir to some fortune, or someone with oodles of cash, that lives like a pauper. And, there are the people who regardless of their life standing, rise up and shed the chains of poverty. I do not find offense at any poor people, white, yellow, red, green or blue, hey blue people? really blue? I am just having trouble with these giant corporations ruling all of our lives, to [...]

Braveheart, O the tyranny!!

Well, last night me watched Braveheart, one of my all time favorite movies, loosely based on the Scottish conflict with England. Such a fun to watch movie, it got me to thinking, about how inspiring it is to see someone fight for what they believe in a way of life, also reminds me of Geronimo, how different it seems to fight for your way of life,than what our military does, fighting in foreign countries for our Political machine, whichever may be in charge at the moment. It is a wonder. fighting for duty, county, blindly? I can not imagine, but a just war to save the world, like the World Wars, so much different. To think that at that time, we were allies with our current adversaries, China and Russia. Are the people bad, or is it the governments? This is not new, Governments have [...]

Government backed Corporate hospitals

The greed and lock of oversight on Major Corporate hospitals and even the "non-Profits" is obscene, as obscene as any of the worst porn. That is just the tip of the iceberg, now people want free healthcare, you have got to be kidding me, who is going to pay for all this wasted money? you are, the working stiffs of America, the rich bastards, will be sailing across the world in their yachts and private integrative specialized doctors. America will never be strong going into debt to pay Corporate hospitals to make money off of people sickness, never, nada, not going to happen. How about free integrative health, and healthy food?  how about ramping up blood testing, most insurance will not cover complete blood testing, most doctors are just  a bunch of buffoons', I had went to see this Native Doctor at the Phoenix Indian [...]

when I die, I hope I go to the spirit in the sky

Maybe it seems that eye am preoccupied with death, but o, contrair, I think mostly about Living, dying signifies the END you know what? life is a bitch,then you die.. I know pathetic thinking, but really, unless your born with a golden fork or spoon, you have to get on that fucking horse and ride. did you get the tools needed to complete in this world? People expect you to pull up your big boy pants and get on with life, I see for a lot of people just find the nearest bunker and make is  life. I refuse to give up, I will fight to the death of me, well, hopefully, that will be the life of me. I'm the one that jaded you, I think that is Aerosmith, great song, I often think of me Sweet Mary, but who in Jaded me? was [...]

day two of 2020, so far, so good

well, we survived to day 2, the biggest issue on New years was the complaints about fireworks. I usually do not post on these neighborhood deals, but it was new years. The post referred to all the fireworks going off and how it was affecting the vets, pets and children, I responded with HAPPY NEW YEAR, to an already saturated post of one side or the other, from on end of the spectrum to the other, one side going as far as to vote to make it a crime to set off fireworks, the other side, calling the other a bunch of "Karens", some were offended by my "happy New year", but in reality I dont like the noise either, but as many others mentioned, it is usually only once a year, the 4th and new years. my own perspective is when we are in [...]

TGIF friday, just another day

Nothing going on, cold and rainy here in Arizona, well cold and rainy, comparative speaking of course, it goes without saying, yet, I said it 🙂 nothing new on the conspiracy front, I really do believe it should be a felony for a public servant, to publically lie. but what does that mean, nothing, I am nobody, well, nobody to them, but somebody to me own self. a small grain or spec of rice in our world, an even smaller spec in the Universe. what I think means nothing, just observation and guessing, thinking, and wasting time, but I like to think about what is real and not real. all i know is that today, I am alive. well that and I do not like the rainy weather, seems to make me kinda depressed, then I got to thinking, this is the kind of weather, [...]

Covid, scam or plague?

Ok, so what is going on? now we have Omicron, what next? I thought from the beginning that this was all a move towards some objective, and that seems to be the case. Just ask yourself, who is benefitting? is it the taxpayer? the government? or rich hospitals, Corporations or supposed non-profit companies? yes they are raking in billions of Government money, and that is not only the money they are getting, or billing for, I got this bill after insurance paid 5k, it was a scam to fill a room. I was admitted with Covid symptoms, all Covid related. how much money are they getting? the press in this county  is a fucking joke I took the vaccine and got a booster, as I am one of the potentially at risk, being a cancer in remission for almost ten years now. not so much [...]

the last of the Mohicans, or the last of my Indigenous line?

This will lead me to the dark side, the side where my mind sees the bad as it is, the truth as I see it at times, my turning a blind eye to it does not blunt the force of racism. To see humans all humans as people, is easy, to believe one genetic homo sapien is as special as all homo sapiens, is a given, but are we all created equal? not really, I mean we are all different, evolving, and changing. they say we came out of Africa,thousands of years ago, how different are we from that human? not much, but different, at least to some degree, we have evolved to survive. We means all of us humans. we are all part of the plan, we have thrived.  I find it very interesting that the originals, look like the black people of today, [...]

I regret that i have but one life to lead

yes, I, we only have one shot at life.  what is the purpose of our lives? do we have purpose?  I suppose it is to further the species, our species? or all species. The are launching a new Telescope today, which will be able to peer into the great beyond, the the big bang theory. I guess that is a step in the right direction as our Sun will burn out eventually, at least that is what we theorize. what do I have to do with all that? nothing comes to mind, but perhaps it is to not rock the boat?  or maybe it is to rock the boat, lets say, our current pollution and burn up the planet trajectory ends the earth long before the Sun has had a chance to burn out? Maybe a Nuclear war? I was watching some Geographic show about [...]

I will be sixty this year 😮 that mean me MOM will be 80 WOWZERS!!

I always know the age of my mom, as she is 20 years older than me, when  had me when she was 20 years old and my older brother tally, when she was sweet sixteen. she is doing quite well in Maui right now, I have decided to try and visit and see her as much as I can in the coming years, I wish I could get her to see the benefit of healthy eating and lack of drink, even a  little wine can be too much. But that can be a detriment to our relationship, even if it is with good intentions, never too late, until it is. So me and sweet Mary were able to go see her recently in Maui, I know you think what the fuck, you just wrote that you had applied for Native Covid help, yes that is [...]

you tell me corrupt or ignorant….

Ok, so I am an Alaskan Native, yes it is true. So, here is the scenario, our small village of 30 original shareholders, about he size of Eklutna Native corporation near Anchorage, at least at the start of the Claims Act in 1972, when I was 10 years old. I have many issues with this, as you will see, anyhoo, The amount of land that Eklutna has gotten was 100 times for than our small corporation, because a local tool Omar Stratman was used to make sure the local Natives did not get a fair quota of land, but that is not my topic, but I can't help myself, I just hate being cheated, and we were cheated, even for years afterward, the local jurisdiction made us pay taxes on our land, afterall we were a  corporation. The real topic is this, Our little corporation [...]

New Addition to the family, Loki the wonder pup

We have another dog!!  yes it is true. a shepard Husky mix. his name is LOKI, jt named him, Rhaegar is a little annoyed, but he did protect the little fur monkey, when sophia got to close. I am finally getting around to adding the conduit and connecting the wires on my sub panel for our jacuzzi jets, a pain in the ass for sure, using 4 # 6 wires in the conduit and some 6-2 insulated wire in the attic. Home depot and lowes have only half the parts needed, so I am going back and forth, I thought I could use an existing junction box attached to our main panel, but it had a 1/2" hole, witch is under the  minimum code  for those wires, so I used 3/4" which is the min. hopefully today I will fire up the jets. (but I [...]

Racism is alive and well in the World, or is it?

So I posted on a page, I have responded to page post before, minimally, but this was my first post on a page How much Scottish does one have to have in dna to be considered scottish? 10% 95% 1% In YOUR OPINION? here is the group https://www.facebook.com/groups/1825521394281067/ The name of the group: Ancestry & Heritage Scotland here is some of it copy and pasted  

accept that which I can not change

acceptance of what we can not change, is most everything, We (eye) need to embrace change, to welcome it as the seasons. Merry Christmas HO HO HO do you believe in Santa? God? life after death? if you believe hard enough, does it make it reality?  

December third what to say, nada nada nada

I feel kind of melancholy today, and yet I a not sure if eye know what that word means;) big day ahead crushing a brick wall, I keep wanting to make Construction videos, but when I think about it, it will just slow me down, my mission get the job done, get paid. simple, but eventually I would like to share my experience of contracting, tips and all that jazz, and safety but since I am going to be sledgehammering a block wall today, that will have to wait.  You know I feel a little guilty about slamming the dems and republicans, because we all just want to belong, and be proud of our beliefs, and really I do not believe much anymore. I do believe our healthcare is geared toward profit, and not prevention and cause of effect. free healthcare in the present system [...]

Freedom: just nothing left to lose? are we free

Freedom is a big word, and for most of civilization it can mean, not a slave. not in shackles. On my daily jaunt the other day, I was watching a bird fly across the sky, thinking to myself, now that is freedom, true freedom. We are born into whatever life we have, born with mindsets of previous parenting, non parenting or as a reaction to whatever we have, we are pre-programed. the only true freedom is within our own minds, it is all we can control, or at least have the ability to control. it was funny too, because on the home stretch, I was going past a stranger, within a few feet, and he asks is your dog trained?  all I could think of, we are trained, how are we trained, are we trained? I do not feel free in that sense, I am [...]

on further review…eye feel the need for a disclaimer

I learned another lesson, on my latest project, I should have bid that out, and charged the 10 grand a legitimate plumbing contractor would have, even more if it included everything, sometimes trying to do a good thing, can backfire, not that it was the customers fault, anyway live and learn, or just live and let live, this is after all my personal journal, which is public, kind of :/  yes that and slamming the children, that was also uncalled for, even in venting, as someone may read that, and think I am against families living together past 18 years, NO way JOSE, that is not my message, my message was, I have reactions and feelings, I am human, did I mention this is an online journal?  Our society is made to break up families, we wouldn't want any groups, especially families forming different options [...]

Love the desert weather in the winter 🙂

Anchorage is hovering around 3 degrees, brr ice in Kodiak, we have 80's and sunny today, that is the benefit of living in the desert. I love going North during the winter, just to see the cold weather, it reminds me, not to live there during the winter, sometimes we get amnesia, at least eye do.  Hey, your want to know what a  real desert is? try going out to the bering sea for a few months, that is a desert, you can not see land, unless you get blown into shore by 100 mile an hour winds, you dont see people, except for  every 2 weeks, when you get to deliver to a floating processer, but sill no can see land. I did this 3 months fishing brown crab, we used pyramid pots, kind of like long lining, only with crab pots. My fellow [...]

Twizzle Twazzle time for this one to come home

looks like I dodged another bullet, or in my case nightmare project. I am still broken hearted, it was going to be a nice project, until I saw the future, but just like the turtle in Mr. Wizard, I did not see it soon enough, lost my ass again, or at least did way too much work for the money.  I was conflicted in not doing the project, but today, I saw the quote I needed to see, if you need to think hard about something, the answer is NO. I hate to think this is all because of Biden and the Covid 19  issue, but think it is more the rich bitches that are doing all this, owned by the press, and we are just sheep, they make sure we are distracted in small time bullsit, wear a mask, dont wear a mask, Irish [...]

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