so, you know I think dumb things all the time, and even act on them, like writing stupid stuff, toxic thinking, or in AA they say stinking thinking. I do like to write in the moment, and there is a price to be paid. I think that it comes down to negative thinking. you know worst case  when in fact, nobody cares, well not so much that, but we all have some burden more pressing. it is best to forget these things. the whole native thing is bunk. sad but true, I see all these natives all across Anchorage, homeless indigent some with some serious mental issues.  anyway, screw it all, just screw them all. it is a waste of time. I dont need them. the whole family is toxic. a lousy 750 acres or  less than 5 native allotments 160 acres.  koniag and the blm bia should have at least given our little piss pot corporation an equal amount for 30 shareholder4800 acres. crock of shit. anyway no emails no sharing just disgust in the way Alaska Natives are treated by thier own people, and the purchasers of land lock stock and barrell. the richest nation on earth.  how can these people be proud to be american?